The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

The Good- Chemo is over and the week went better than we thought it would based on the 3rd one... It is now 8 days since chemo and the doctor tells us it only stays in my system for about 10 days so the best of the good news is I still have my eyelashes and eyebrows. Unless things get crazy I think I am home free. I guess if you call being bald home free. To throw in something funny. I am so afraid my eyebrows are going to just drop off one day that I don't even sleep with my face close to my pillow. I keep thinking crap what if I wake up and one morning and one is gone and the other isn't.

More Good- My surgery is scheduled for 5/30. We are doing a standard lumpectomy and then about 4-6 weeks after surgery I will begin 6 weeks of radiation. I have learned many things from this trip but most recently I learned sometimes there is just no short cut. Cancer is the non short cut disease. I guess there are certain things in life we should want done right and getting rid of cancer is one of them.

The Bad - I have a another chest cold. Oh yes my friends just as the weekend was nearing the end I started feeling coldish. You know ear ache, soar throat, headache, and chest pain. You know I think someone up stairs is getting the wrong idea about me. I am really a big baby and can not take all of this discomfort much longer. I am not going to ever brag about never being sick again. See what bragging gets you.

The Ugly- DOES ANY ONE KNOW WHERE THE HECK ALL OF THIS SNOT COMES FROM??????? HOW IS IT THAT WE PRODUCE SO MUCH????????

I will close with a good thing... a cold keeps my mind off my cancer boob so I guess it is a blessing. Now that my friends is real positive thinking. I should win a freakin Polly Positive award after this is done.

Thanks for checking in with us and for your love and support. I will try and keep you more up to date in the weeks to come. Remember on Tuesday May 30th send me good vibes and prayers.

My last week as a princess!!!

Sorry I haven’t been posting recently but until last Sunday I really had not felt up to it. We walked on mothers day in the American Cancer Society Making Strides walk and I am proud to say our team made just over 400.00 for the walk. It was a great day to walk and I got to be on channel two new. Oh yes me in all of my glory. Thank God for good editing and kind hearts at the station to only show my face. Cuz Lord when they showed a group shot of us I can tell you TV must put 75 lbs on me cuz I looked huge. Any who my last chemo was on Monday….. hoooooraaaayyyyy for me. The bad news is this may be my last week as a princess. I have felt fairly good this time and with what all the doctors are telling us we are over the hill and well on our way down the back side of this ride. Supposedly surgery and six weeks of radiation shouldn’t slow me down at all. This week is filled with more doctor appointments and then hopefully surgery within the next two weeks and then radiation for 6 to follow. If God is kind to me I just might have some hair by August. Hooray for me. By the way many of you may have wondered what the heck has happened to bunny. Wellllll he has been in hiding. He didn’t really like the wig we got him when he lost his ears I keep telling him they look real but he doesn’t believe me so he has decided to ware a scarf exclusively until this is all over. What do you think?


We love all of you and can't thank you enough for your support and love. We would never have been able to get this far without you. Blessings and health to all of you and yours.

Feeling better

If the last few days were a five than today would be a seven. So that is good cuz I always wanted to be a 10 but I have always considered my self a strong seven. Well not now, I think sevens have to have hair to qualify as sevens. Now that is of course depending on what time of night it is and how much you had to drink. But once I get my hair back you better watch out Bo.. you put hair on me and get me off my fat butt who knows eight and nine might be just around the corner.

As you can tell I really don't have much to report except that we love all of you. We want to send out a private thank you to my father and his wife Sue. They read the blog and I have yet to mention how supportive they have been and how much we appreciate their love and support. Funny how I cry like a baby when I speak words but I can say the sappiest things on this blog. Maybe I have discovered the solutions to family communication- BLOGS.. Yes we never have to speak to each other again just check each others blogs. Hey now there is the thought for the day. Call the people you love and tell them. Don't wait until you need a blog to keep people updated on your illness.

We love you all and don't know what we would do with out all of you.

Angels are real - get ready this is a bit long

I started this blog so I could keep our friends and family updated on my progress with this stupid thing people like to call cancer. As time goes by I realize I keep this blog going so I can tell the stories of true Angels. First let me open with a joke... bare with me here and you will see where I am going.

There was this man who believed so strong in the Lord that when a flood was coming and a man in a truck came and said " get in or you will drown the flood is coming" The man said " no thank you my Lord will provide and save me". The flood waters came and the man was on his top floor of his home when a group in a boat floated by and said " get in the flood is here you are going to drown" the man said "no thank you my Lord will provide and save me". When the water forced the man to his roof a helicopter flew by and hovered and the group yelled " get in or you will drown" the man said "no thank you my Lord will provide and save me". The man drown and when he got to heaven he asked God why? What have I done to deserve this, you are my Lord you didn't provide and you didn't save me. God said what do you want from me I sent you a truck, a boat and a helicopter.

Now for my story of Angels. The last few days have really sucked in fact I have felt in simple words really really crappy. So when Tom reminded me we had his company BBQ to go to I dreaded getting out of bed. In fact I was spread out across our bed crying. At first it was when I told my cat I loved him but that's another story. Then it was because I felt forsaken. From the beginning of this nightmare I thought, why me what have I done to deserve such a punishment, then I thought why has this challenge been given to me, then how can I make a difference and when will it be clear.. Yesterday Tom sat with me and rubbed my back as I cried and asked God to please show me a sign that all of this is for something. In fact I prayed that if the crappy gets worse with each Chemo how will I be able to deal with it. I prayed for God to show me a sign, anything.

We had to be at the BBQ by 4:30 so until 3:50 I lay in bed wondering how the hell this was going to work. So off we went to his bosses’ home for a co-worker gathering for what I thought was kind and generous show of support for Tom. What I didn't know was these kind people who work with Tom at Horizon Air had organized a garage sale and were giving us the proceeds. Crazy you say well it is true. His co-workers in several departments worked on this for the last month gathering stuff to sell to help us. As they handed me this gift box with a card I thought how nice they were having a BBQ and giving me a gift.. what I couldn’t believe was the gift was just under 1200.00. To be exact it was 1172.92.. YES !!!! It’s crazy isn’t it. How do you thank a group of people who would do this kind thing for you?.. I don’t know how to begin.

So you say what the hell does this have to do with anything. Well I keep asking God to show me a sign. I don’t know how many more times he will show me before he gets mad at me for not listening. Our Guardian Angels walk with us everyday and we have no clue. They are people like Julia, Michelle, Tracy, Shane, Whitney, Mary, Chong and all of the kind and wonderful people who work at Horizon Air. (I am sorry to those I didn’t name) How do you thank Angels, I don’t know. But I do know I am getting in that TRUCK……….. God doesn’t have to tell me anymore that we are loved and he will provide. I now know the reason for this. It is to tell the world there are Angels and a group of them work at Horizon Air. (Ironic huh? Angels fly.. get it?)

Thank you to all of the people at Horizon Air
Bless you all with good health and happiness

PS: I found a nickel in the elevator on the way up to the apartment so the total is 1172.97. How’s that for Angels at work?

Better!

Not much to report just wanted you all to know I am feeling better today. Thanks for the love.

Tough two days..

Feeling a little crappy yesterday and today. I won't bore you with the details. I will tell you, I feel like I am on a long ride in the back seat of the car on a rainy day with the windows rolled up and mom and dad won't stop smoking. My body doesn't like all this medication they are pumping into me. The good news is within 90 days this should all be a bad dream that I get to wake up from and then I will only be able to blame feeling crappy on no exercise and being fat and lazy and not the cancer. Oh those were the days....

Send me some extra good energy (mojo) if you can I think I need a little boost for the next few days.

Love you all

ONE MORE CHEMO TO GO!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday was my 3rd chemo I have one more to go on 5/15 then two weeks later my lumpectomy and then radiation (?). We got some really great news yesterday our Oncologist. Dr. Stacy Lewis believes the tumor has now shrunk to 2cm x 1.5cm plus she think some of that size may only be scar tissue so the tumor may be even smaller. So keep those prayers for a miracle coming cuz it could still happen. She gave us some other great news we are hoping to qualify for a special radiation treatment that last only 7 days vs the daily trips for 6 weeks. We see a Radiologist Specialist soon to see if I qualify or not. We also see my surgeon next Monday to get my pre-op surgery work done and the date schedule. We will keep you updated. In celebration of this great news we thought our loved ones and friends should get to decide how I will be wearing my hair (or lack of hair) for the next 8-10 weeks. So here are three photos one al a carte, one with scarf, and one with my wig. You decide and let us know via email or phone. We would love to hear from all of you plus give me a break. I took these self photos this morning the day after chemo and I look like shit. We love you all and want to remind you and your loved ones to get mammograms. They save lives... not only because they can find something but because they can give your doctors a base line of what normal is for you so over the years you will know what is changing and what has been there for years without change. DON’T DELAY ANY LONGER !!!!